San Diego

God changed my life in ten short days. I was "supposed" to go to Africa... or so I thought, but that all changed when I felt the tug of the Lord at my heart. He revealed to me how perfect His timing really is, when He changed my life in a little city in California. I am absolutely amazed. Who knew?

A brief synopsis...

You have changed me. You have not only given me an amazing experience of a lifetime, but You have changed the way I think, You have changed my character, and You have changed my heart from the inside-out. I could feel my heart changing all week long, but I think the kicker came when those girls accepted Christ on Saturday. I could see how badly they wanted hope, and when their eyes were opened to the hope that could be found in You, it was absolutely incredible to watch. She understood that nothing else could satisfy her except for You, and Your love. And that is just such a miracle.

My heart changed that day, because I want to be able to share with those seeking hope and satisfaction in this world. I want to be able to show them about my Father's love, the love that has never stopped satisfying me, and since following Him, has never disappointed me.

Father, for the fist time in my life I think what I'm saying is that my heat and love for the lost, and the sense of urgency I feel in my heart for them is far out-weighing my fear. And I've never been able to say that before in my life until now. It's only by Your work in my heart that you've made this transformation in me. Thank you for turning my apathy into a heart that not only desires to serve You, but will go because of the urgency and love You have placed on my heart.

I trust You fully, that You will provide that next step for me, and direct my paths. You have amazing plans for me - this is true. I just need to trust You along the way, too. I think I've been looking too far ahead. Carly is right, I need to start taking steps, and You are going to guide me. By just sitting and waiting, I'm not tuly trusting, but rather, worrying about it. And You tell us "not to worry about tomorrow, because today has enough trouble of its own." You tell us "not to be anxious about anything..." because ultimately, it's all under control. You're not going to mis-guide me, and You're not going to let me stray. So, I guess I'm in pretty good hands then. Help me cling to that truth. Help me run to Your word, and run to prayer, and run to you first before anything else. You know me best, and You know everything est, so why wouldn't I? I'm excited to see what You have in store, Father for this year. When Doug was talking about all of us "being sent" last night, I couldn't help but think about MSU - West Circle. You've placed me there for a reason. I ask that you would make this fourth, final year there diffeent. Help me to truly reach out to people on my floor, and to my unbelieving friends. Jesus, you sat with the poor, and the sinners, and the tax collectors - the people that needed to hear Your truth. I pray that I, as well as those around me would share that same heart. I pray for opportunities to share the Gospel with them. Thank you for choosing us to carry this out.

Thank you for choosing me to go to San Diego. Thank you for changing my life, and for changing my heart. Thank you for showing me how perfect your timing is.

Thank you for loving me so much.