comfort

Lord, I know you're there. But I am so broken. Show me your comfort. Show me that you can take away this pain. I feel so useless. This pain makes me vulnerable to the lies that are constantly being thrown at me. I've tried to trust, but it's been getting bad again. I've tried to trust and have faith that You are greater than any kind of pain, but I am in pain more than I'm not. I am tired and weary. I can't make it through the end of the year - through classes, through finals, and through my barrier jury with this pain. I can't. Lord, allow me to cry. I haven't shed any tears, and I've tried. But they won't come. All I want to do is let out this emotion, but it won't come. Lord, show me your comfort. Show me that you love me. Show me that you care. Show me that you have a plan for me. Take away this sadness that is within me when the pain is searing. Comfort me because I am blinded, and lost. Comfort me, because I am broken. I can't do this anymore.

loss for words

I feel so empty. I know that I need to ask my heavenly father for strength, and I need to have faith that He can take away the pain in my head, but it's just so hard. I know God is sovereign, yet I feel blinded, and I feel like things are spinning out of control. So many things are on my mind, and so many things I am not giving to God, but am taking into my own hands - or rather, I just let sit here and collect till I get to this point... this point of brokenness of which I feel absolutely inadequate to do anything. It's all so waring on my heart and mind, and I'm at a loss for words.

Lord, help me today. Take away this pain and renew me because I am useless.

Here I am at the end I'm in need of resurrection
Only You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead
What I've lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption
You can take the pieces in Your hand
and make me whole again