When? When does it go away? At what point is it enough? When does all this waiting... all this pain, and the exhaustion from it all - when does it end? When is it enough?
Why won't You take it? Why won't You show me what You have planned? When is the pain going to stop?
I don't believe Jeremiah 29:11 right now. I know it's truth. But I'm having a hard time completely believing it. It's hard when there's a constant reminder in my very own head... of the lies and inflicting pain - causing me to constantly remember that it's there... that the pain is still there. And it's not going away anytime soon.
It's hard to submit myself or even begin to want to trust at this point. All I can hope for at this point, is that He still wants me... that He still wants me to be His child. Because I know that I'm mnot going to find my way back all by myself.
I've fallen. I've fallen really deep this time.
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