It's been a long week. My head still hurts. I went to the doctor on Wednesday, and they drew a bunch of blood to do tests. He doesn't really know what's wrong.... says it could be genetic, but he doesn't really know. So for now he has me on some sort of medication that I can't pronounce. I guess I'm supposed to take this stuff every day. It's supposed to lessen the pain. My head hurts right now, and I had a migraine last night... so we'll see.


I'm sitting here right now, kind of like I have been all week. I haven't really done much, or gotten much accomplished. I've been slowly unpacking all of my things, but even that isn't completely done yet. I'm really hoping the rest of the summer isn't going to go like this. I'm really going stir crazy. I go back to work later this afternoon... I'm going back to my old job because no one's hiring right now. I'm probably going to be making minimum wage, but I guess it's better than nothing. I really need to have a change of heart about this summer. I just don't see a point to it right now.


I need to learn what it means to be part of a family again. I need to be more patient. I need to be more loving. Questions and doubts are flooding my mind again, and they couldn't have come at a worse time... satan knows me really well, and it's scary. I think I need a date with Jesus.

I don't feel like there was really a point to this entry. But maybe it's good that I'm writing this down. Hopefully by the end of the summer I'll be able to look back at these and laugh.

I know the Lord is good. I know He is who He says He is. But sometimes I feel stuck. I feel stagnant, and I don't like it.

I'm frustrated.