I'm having a hard time trusting Him with this one. The doctor said I needed to come in so that he could discuss the blood test results with me from last week. That's weird, because before, they were able to let me know over the phone that everything came back normal. So maybe things didn't come back normal this time... I don't know, I'm nervous.
I guess all I can do is not worry, because that's the only thing I do have control over - the choice to trust or not. It's just so hard. It's so hard to completely surrender everything to Him - especially when things get hard. The medication isn't working, so I'm still in pain.
I find myself falling short. It's so hard to let it all go.
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. -Phil. 3:12-14
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- Melissa
- I'm loved by my Creator. I'm being sanctified every day into the likeness of the Perfect One... Ultimately, I'm called to love people like Jesus does. I'm not perfect, but try and shine my light, so that others might catch a glimpse of who He is.
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