broken still

I don't know what else to do anymore. I'm losing heart. I am angry. I am sad. I'm weary and heavy laden. I don't see the point. I have lost heart. Everything seems useless. Everything seems meaningless. I have become dysfuctional when the pain is at its full force. So many things are on my heart. So many things are making my head hurt. I don't like what this summer looks like. God has a plan. I can't see it. So I dread it, because I know myself and I know the two potentials of what it could be. I don't have faith. Even though He has proved Himself time and time again and pulled me out of the pit of emptiness and darkness, I find myself here now. I feel like I have lost sight of all things that are good, and perfect. I don't like the place I'm in, and I long, once again to be in His arms. Everything is so blinding. This pain is blinding.

Broken I run to You, for Your arms are open wide

I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life

So I'll wait for You, and I'll wait for You

I'm falling on my knees

Offering all of me

Jesus, You're all this heart is living for