Light

Romans 13:9, 12, 14...

Love your neighbor as yourself; Put on the armor of light; Cloathe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ...

I need to be a light to those around me, so that they can see the Love of Christ shine through. I haven't been doing that lately. I need to learn how to be a light, despite the pain in my head. I don't think that means covering things up as if they were fine, but rather - surrounding myself in Truth constantly, so that I don't get to a point of extreme darkness. I've really been struggling lately, and I haven't been clinging to truth or emrsing myself in it like I should. That's probably why I feel so defeated - like there's no Hope when I get a bad migraine, or when intense questions of uncertainty and question and doubt fill up my mind. I tend to do the opposite and run in exactly the opposite direction, when I should be running toward the Light.

My head still really hurts. I'm trying not to let it make me sad, but it's hard. I'm trying to look upward toward heaven, but it's hard. I'm trying to tune out the lies that fill up my mind and heart in times of suffering, but it's really, really hard.

Lord, help me to cling to You in times of suffering; help me to experience the unconditional joy that the Word and Scriptures talk about. I know that I have been heading down the wrong path, because I can feel it in my heart. Lord, help me to rejoice in you when the pain in my head becomes so intense, that I cannot possibly function, unless it is through you. Help me to trust and know that You are God, even in my time of question and uncertainty. Lord, I want to experience you, and I want to feel you and feel your presence. Deep down in my heart, I want nothing less than to follow you. It is this mind and body that wants to do differently. So Lord, help direct and keep my paths straight. Make me whole again. Renew and revive me according to your loving kindess. Help me to know You.